Well as usual things have been up and down. It always seems like there is at least one thing going wrong at any one time through this whole journey. As always though there are also some positives that I need to keep focussing on as well.
Health wise things have improved. It looks at this stage the heart thing was a once off affair. My knee is also responding to treatment and improving.
I am back on a training program from my coach in Canberra, John Armstrong. It is great to be back on a program after 10 days in limbo and know where things are headed. I am optimistic that I will be healthy enough to continue training to the program right through the games. It is really hard at the moment to know what my expectations are and what is a realistic goal and time to aim for. The major key to having effective training is consistency and I have certainly not had that much at all this year.
Penni and Matilda left yesterday after being here in Perth for the last 5 days. They stayed 5 doors down the road but I was able to spend some time with them. The highlight was going to the fun centre and crawling about the structure with Matilda. It her words 'it's a bit scary Daddy'. I don't think I would have been able to mentally deal with things without their support. It has been a tough week mentally dealing with some of the setbacks but having them here particularly this week was a real boost.
It looks like the next 10 days will be pretty tough both physically and mentally. To be honest my dream of coming back to compete in Beijing after all the setbacks is turning into a nightmare and I can't wait for it to be over. I guess it is sometimes like this when you put so much of yourself into something and build the pressure up that you then turn it into something that is just not fun. Still I get to let the release valve off soon and then have some time at home and doing some fun things like play with Matilda and maybe go mountain biking again.
9 Comments Posted
Vic Plant | Wednesday, 20 August 2008 10:54:58 PM
Dianne Fraser | Thursday, 21 August 2008 8:23:13 PM
Whatever happens, you have been such an inspiration to so many and have a special place in the hearts of us here in Busso - you cheered Eli on when he was so sick and we are now wanting to cheer you on too.
We hope you find some joy in the midst of the difficulties - maybe part of it is that you have made such a difference to the lives of so many others and we are so glad you are who you are.
js | Thursday, 21 August 2008 9:11:16 PM
The games will always be there.
Keep up the good work.
Dr. Bullet | Friday, 22 August 2008 8:44:11 AM
In the immortal words of Monty Python "Cheer up y'old b*gger, worse things happen at sea, y'know"! Just trying to lighten the moment...I don't mean to diminish what you're going through. Focus on the really important stuff and take the time to enjoy it. Remember WHY you do all this. You're an uber-human in everyones' eyes anyway...so cut yourself a bit of slack!
Thinking of you and your family.
ms | Saturday, 23 August 2008 10:50:24 AM
Ann & Jane from Qld flyball | Saturday, 23 August 2008 9:54:27 PM
bean | Sunday, 24 August 2008 9:52:56 PM
SImon | Monday, 25 August 2008 8:26:18 PM
Michael Milton | Wednesday, 27 August 2008 10:10:15 AM
Thanks for reading my blog and your interest in me. I am sorry that we have had to delete your anonymous post.
My goal through this whole adventure has always been to qualify and compete in Beijing. From my point of view I have achieved that goeal. I continue to train hard and look forward to putting in a good performance at the games. My goals have the full support of my family, friends and Doctors both at the AIS, Paralympic team and who treated me for cancer last year.
It is my belief that having a goal to work towards and being on the bike and training has a very positive effect on both my physical and psychological wellbeing.
I hope that you continue to read the BLOG and post comments as you see fit with a name to them.